Diary of Lula

I'm Back Diary
Dear Diary,

I have been away way too long. I lost the computer thingy that makes it work. Stupid me, I though it was free like the TV. I got the bills in Bobby's name so I did what I do with all the bills that aren't to me, I let them stack up til I remembered to send them to Mr. Phelps.
Mr. Phelps is Bobby's lawyer, and he sort of takes care of things.
Anyways, the computer worked but I couldn't get it to do anything I wanted it to. I couldn't get here. So one day Mr. Phelps calls and asks me how things are, so I told him that Bobby's computer didn't work anymore. He asked me if I paid the internet bill.
I didn't know I was suppossed to pay a bill to make it work.
Mr. Phelps fixed it, said he'd make sure it got taken care of, so here I am.

Seems weird writing again, but so good to be able to read my own diary, I thought it was all gone for sure.

My Date with Jamie was wonderful, but I guess I did something wrong, because he hasn't called me. I wanted him to come inside and stay the night with me, but he just kissed me and left. Maybe I was too fast, some boys don't like fast girls, not that I've ever met any that wouldn't come after an invite, but I hear some boys don't.
After not hearing from him for a week I went by his work to see him. I pretended I was shopping for a new spare tire, but he wasn't there. When I asked if Jamie still worked there, the guy said yes, but told me he wouldn't be in for awhile. Maybe that was true, but maybe Jamie was just hiding from me.

He was too perfect for me. I should know by now that nice boys don't want me. I'm afraid that people are talking about me again. I try to be good, but my past keep catching up with me.

I went by to see Mr. Horton today, he is my neighbor and I worry about him. He is getting so forgetful these days.  I feed his dogs because he forgets what day it is and when he last fed them. I used to pick up dog food at the dollar store and leave it on his porch, but now he forgets to even fill their dish. Thank goodness the meals on wheels ladies come to feed Mr. Horton, or he might forget to feed himself.

I met him when I first moved in with Bobby, he used to talk to me about his flower garden, his wife was still alive then but she was really sick. I never met her, I only saw her when the abulence came to take her away, the flashing lights woke me up. Poor Mr. Horton, he has really gone down hill since she died. He loves those 2 little dogs, but sometimes he forgets their names, so I go by on my way home from work to check on them and feed them. He is really old, like old old, like almost 90 I think. Losing his wife has made him even older. In the last 6 months he's gone senile fast.
Grammy always told me to be a good neighbor was to be a good Christian, I try my best to be the girl Grammy wanted me to be. I'll keep looking out for Mr. Horton and his dogs.

I'll write again soon Diary, I need to catch up about work.
Tammie scares me. I may have to leave my job because of her. I think shes evil.




Lula 22/05/05 1:55 AM Comments (0)

Hello!
Testing testing does this thing still work
Lula 22/05/05 1:11 AM Comments (0)

I am Busy Busy

Dear Diary

Wow, what a busy week I am having! I'll need to catch up soon because so much has happened!
Jamie didn't call me, instead he showed up at my work!!!!
OH MY GOD! He is so awesome HOT! 
He was so sweet, he walked into the shop and Tammie pounced on him right away, asking if he wanted a hair cut. He was so nice, he said no, he liked his hair just fine and he wanted to talk to Lula.
That's me!
I was so excited I thought I'd pee my pants!
Anyways, he said he knew I didn't have much time, but he was on his lunch and he brougth me a soda and hoped we could sit in his car for a few minutes. I thought I'd died and gone to heaven!
And get this, he brought me a Cherry Limeade from Sonic! The big one! I love those! There were 3 cherries in it, thats good luck! 3 cherries is always good luck, that is a fact.

So we sat in his car for about 15 minutes ( his car is badass too! An old 60' s Mustang, such a muscle car!!!!!!)
We talked and drank our sodas. He said he washed my phone number in his jeans pocket, and so he asked about me and found out where I worked. He said it took him 2 days to track me down. That made my toes curl, he is so goshall romantic I can't stand it!

This is the Boy for me!  We listened to Van Halen on the stereo!
I really think he is special. I can't wait to get him alone !
 So he asked if he could take me out to DINNER! He gets paid on friday, and wants me to go out with him, for DINNER! I am floating. He isn't like those other boys that just want to take me parking or back to their place. No, he likes me. He wants to buy me DINNER!
I can't wait for my date tomorrow night! I don't know what to wear. Oh my gosh, I need to paint my nails!

Work is awful! I never thought I would hate my job but I do.
Tammie is causing all sorts of stress there, and though I am trying my best, she is a hard person to get along with.
Of course it doesn't help that Shirl is coddling her.

So yesterday, right before we closed there was all this yelling from the back, Tammie and Joanne were going at it!
I heard them yelling and ran back to see what was going on, Shirley was right behind me. I got there first and saw the hateful look in Tammies eyes, just before she saw Shirl.
 As soon as she saw Shirl she started crying. But I saw her face first, I know she wasn't upset, she was mad. I saw pure hate in her eyes.  Joanne tried to defend herself, but it was no use. Tammie said Joanne said hateful things to her, said Joanne called her a cunt,  then she ran to Shirley and sobbed in her arms.
I looked at Joanne and she didn't even look mad , she looked confused.  She told me later  that she'd never called Tammie any names, just told Tammie that she didn't want her stealing her regular clients anymore, and that was when Tammie went off and started screaming at her. I've known Joanne since we were little, we went to vacation bible school together when we were like 6 or 7. Joanne is tough , but she doesn't lie. Besides I saw Tammie, the tears were totally fake.
It has been a roller coaster since Tammie showed up.
Shirley told me again that Tammie needs a friend and that she was counting on me to treat her well, to befreind her.
I want to, but Tammie scares me, part of me thinks that girl just isn't right in the head, and I can't deal with people who lie  for no good reason.
But I'll try, because sometimes, you can win people over with patience and kindness. I got lots of patience.
I hope tomorrow is better, I don't want to look all pinched and tired for my date.
I have a DATE! A real dinner date!

~Lula

Lula 29/04/05 5:25 AM Comments (0)

Dear Diary,

I waited up late for Jamie to call me, and he didn't.
I hope he calls tomorrow. I really want to like him.

~Lula 
Lula 27/04/05 4:10 AM Comments (0)

Work is weird
Dear Diary

It isn't going to be easy to make friends with Tammie. I don't think she likes me, I don't think she likes anyone. Shirl moved the other girls stations around so that Tammie got the best one, the one with the best light up near the front. People were not happy about that. I felt bad for Tammie because that put her in a real bad spot with the other stylists right away.

I wonder if Tammie is shy, because she wasn't very friendly to anyone, if fact she pretty much ignored the rest of us unless Shirl was around.
As soon as she found out I wasn't a stylist she started bossing me. Oh and she didn't even clean up her work station when she left. The girls seemed pretty pissed, but I'm going to try to be extra nice to her, it must be hard to be new.  I am going to win her over, she needs a friend like me.

I met the cutest boy yesterday! I had to get my tire fixed and he worked on my car. This boy is a stone FOX! Long brown hair, twinkly green eyes, and the cutest little goatee.
He was so cute I couldn't help myself and I leaned against him and made sure he got a good look down my blouse.
It worked! He asked if maybe we could go out sometime.
His name is Jamie and he is going to call me! Woooooo , he is so hot I get all flustery. I need someone to work on my car too! Maybe after he works on me!

If it gets yucky today at the Perm Spot, I will think about that Jamie boy and smile.

~Lula
Lula 26/04/05 1:34 PM Comments (0)

New Friend!
Dear Diary,

I got a call from Shirley this afternoon. I thought she was gonna give me a hard time about not going to Church today, but she called to tell me we are getting a new stylist at work tomorrow! It's the daughter of Shirl's best friend from high school, so I guess she is like a niece or  a cousin to Shirley.
Her name is Tammie, and Shirl asked me to be extra nice to her. She said the other girls might not take right away to someone new, but since I am so naturally outgoing and friendly that she knew I could be nice and make Tammie feel wanted.

That made me so happy, that Shirl thinks I'm nice to people, because I try to always be a good person. Grammy taught me that was important.  Grammy said that one should treat others with kindness if they expected kindness in return, and that no one gives respect without getting it. Grammy was full of good life lessons like that, I try to make her proud of me. I miss her so much sometimes.

Anyways, I am super excited about the chance to make a new friend. I hope me and Tammie get to be close friends right away.
I hope she likes all the things I do, and  I hope she gets my jokes, because that's important in a friendship.
I'm going to go iron my pink blouse, it's important to make a good first impression on someone you want to be best friends with. I wish my nails weren't all chewed up looking.
I'm so excited!!!!
Tomorrow is gonna be a great Day, I can't wait!

~Lula

p.s. I hope the bigger letters work , I want to be able to read my words easier. I still can't figure out the time setting, I write something in the afternoon and the timer says I wrote at 3 in the morning! I'll figure this computer stuff out someday, it's just hard for me still.  



Lula 25/04/05 1:45 AM Comments (0)

Thank God it's Friday!

Dear Diary,

I am so glad this week is over.
Shirley loved the response from the ad in the Shpper, but I am beat to hell tired.
I used to go out dancing on Fridays, but lately I am just too tired to do more then take my clothes off and crawl in bed.
I watch more TV then I used to, I stay home more. My life is a big drag. I like watching tv, but going out was funner.

Me and Bobby, when we first hooked up, we used to go out 3 or 4 nights a week!  We would dance and play darts and hang out with friends at the bar, it was a good life. Sometimes on payday weekends we would light up the BBQ and cook, and people would come over, and we would drink and laugh and eat.
Sometimes  I miss Bobby alot. I guess I could go out to the prison and visit him, but I don't miss Prison Bobby, I miss  At HOME Bobby, and there isn't any AT HOME Bobby anymore.
Actually, if I were being honest with myself, Bobby was only a Good boyfriend for the first couple months we were together. The sex was so good  then, and he was so sweet on me, like the moon rose for me. People may say different now, but I know Bobby loved me.
My friends say Bobby was pimping me, but it wasn't like that at all, at least not at first. He loved me. I know he did.
Poor Bobby, he doesn't have a phone, so he is uncallable, like Grammy, like he is dead.

So I don't go out much anymore, I am still okay, just because I 'm not dancing and fucking, doesn't mean i'm not happy.

No one calls here anymore, the phone used to ring all the time, all hours, Bobby had alot of friends. I just need to get used to the quiet. I'm okay though. I think  I'm going to take that Beauty School exam  again, I'd make more money.
Tomorrow is Saturday, I can sleep in.

~Lula

Lula 23/04/05 3:37 AM Comments (0)